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*Wednesday* Jul 23, 2008
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Hot Stuff

I’m kissing one.
And he’s kissing me back.

Anyway, I might go camping with Jake and his family this weekend… soooo, I have to finish all my work by Friday because we won’t be home until Sunday. But I think it will be a lot of fun. Last year, he went with me and my family and it’s cool that this year I get to go with his. One thing’s different though because we were just friends last year but now I’m his girlfriend so it makes me feel a bit shy about meeting his family. But what I’m mostly worried about is getting sick… while camping… with a ton of people I don’t know. Yikes! Sick coz of the food. Sick coz of heat. Or worse, get my period. NO NO!!! Que horror!!!



*Tuesday* May 20, 2008
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Sometimes I feel awkward after looking at our pictures and seeing how different he looks from me.

I don’t know why but sometimes, when our being different stares right back at me, something inside me clicks. And that is weird because when it comes to love, I believe that people can be with anyone they choose, be it someone from the same sex, outside their race, or practices a different religion. The thing is, when I get these moments of insecurities, I tend to think about what bad things other people might be saying about me for dating outside my race. It doesn’t necessarily affect my thinking or feelings for Jake, but it makes me self-conscious. For example, I feel like people look at us, or me, or assume that I’m someone who’s only after to get a green card. (Uh, EXCUSE ME! I already have one; I’m a legal resident!) You know, those usual stuff you hear.

Anyway, it’s nothing serious that can worry me for life. In reality, I don’t care what they think. And I actually like the fact that Jake looks different more than I am worried about it… BY A GREAT DEAL. I don’t know if this is a learn-to-live-with-what-you-have syndrome. If it is, it doesn’t matter! I fell in love with who Jake is, not what he looks like

“Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.”
Shakespeare

I think this momentary awkwardness is because I didn’t grow up in a country as diverse as the US of A, so I still have that “culture shock” so to speak… which will wear off eventually. LOL!



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