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*Saturday* Jan 5, 2008
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that other guy

I used to go out with this guy which obviously didn’t work out, and as much as I wanted for us to stay friends, I don’t think he’s interested. I’m not saying that we should hang out and be all friendly to each other because that will feel fake and forced since we aren’t that close to begin with. I mean, it would be nice to pretend that we are of normal acquaintance who never went out, forget it ever happened, not make a big deal out of it… that way, we can be rid of any unnecessary baggage and continue to maybe being friends. I don’t think it’s that hard to do.

But anyway, he wasn’t exactly in a friendly mood when we ended it. I tried to calm him and explain stuff but he only kept patronizing me. Bottomline is, we didn’t see eye to eye; he wanted things that I didn’t and of course I too wanted things that he wasn’t up for. Well, some things really are not meant to be.

So, I think around early last year we had a brief talk and he said I knew he was online on YM but I never talked to him, and I said the same thing but also reminded him that he was mad the last time and I didn’t want to be annoying. Anyway, it still didn’t work out because neither of us were interested anymore; sure felt that way.

Then he deletes me on his myspace and duuude! what was that about? I mean, I don’t really care but he’s cutting me out of his life and I don’t think there was a need for that. But then, a couple of months back, he added me on Facebook. I figured he’s building his network, just like everyone, so that’s perfectly okay.

But last night, I saw I’m down one person (it’s not hard to miss if you only have 20+ friends), so I checked who the recent dropout was — yeah, him and it wasn’t because he deleted his account. So… he decided that he does not need me on his list!? Would it hurt if I was there? I recently uploaded a picture of myself and Jake taken on New Year’s and I thought maybe it had something to do with that.. but that is me being full of myself. Now that can’t be the reason although I can’t think of any other… unless he wants to shrink his contact list for reasons he only knows. This is the second time he deleted me and I know I shouldn’t be bothered but I can’t pretend that I don’t notice!!

Shiteeee!! If he’s invited to Kristin’s wedding, I hope we don’t end up sitting close because I suspect he’ll deliberately snub me and I don’t want to deal with that. This is why I strive to have clean friendly break-ups. I think we could’ve been good friends because he’s an okay guy. I really enjoyed hearing his stories too. It’s sad that he’s doing this because it makes me feel bad. It’s better knowing that he doesn’t give a shit about me, which I think is true, rather than being hit with: “I don’t want to see you in my life so I’m deleting anything that has to do with you.”

Sheesh, maybe I’m reading too much into this. Maybe it’s really nothing.

So he decides to shorten his list to what, maybe his closest friends… well…? … it really has nothing to do with me.



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