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My story goes like this: I was born on December 7 in a beautiful country where Filipinos live, the Philippines. I was blessed to already have 2 older, fun and lovely sisters. Four years, eleven months and six days later, our baby brother was born.

I went to nursery school near our house and I remember how I loved holding the crayons and those big boxes of Crayolas with colors I can’t even pronounce and spell! Wowoweewa (in Borat’s exclamating remark)!! Anyway, I remember liking Bluegreen, Gold and Silver. I loathed Red because I saw a picture of the devil, and yes, he was red. So I associated that color to being bad and evil. Hehe!!! Of course now that I’m older, I know better.

Kindergarten was spent at my second sister’s Christian school. I remember sitting behind this little boy with really curly doll-like hair and I always bug him playing with it. I had a younger cousin with the same locks so he was my favorite classmate/doll. There also was this girl who wasn’t exactly nice to me.

Prep, I transferred to my eldest sister’s exclusive for girls Catholic school. Christians and Catholics, I can’t really tell the difference. Same thing as before, we did a lot of praying. One big difference was that there are a lot of nuns around!!! Also, I was extremely surprised to see that I was again classmates with that not-so-nice girl. But this time, she was friendly to me and we became best friends.

Done with preparatory school, so now I’m in my elementary years. Grade 3, I made friends with the girls who up til now are my best buddies. Grade 4, I met more of them. Grade 6, graduating elementary, was fun and sad. Sad because a lot of my close classmate friends were going to different high schools.. but fun because my BFFs and I can’t wait to put on the high school uniform and get rid of the tacky cravat!

High school: SUPER FUN. There were problems but all the more why it’s so unforgettable! I still have the same circle of friends I had in elementary but we didn’t formally call ourselves barkada until in our 2nd year. Anyway, 2nd year was also when I finally decided I can have a girlfriend and not feel guilty. Hehe! Her name was Erika. I later broke up with her because I didn’t really know her. She was a friend of my friend Mikki. After I confessed to Mikki that I was ready to have a gf, she said to ask Erika! Hehe!!! Anyway, in my senior year, I started liking her back, so she wasn’t just my first, but also my last HS girlfriend. In between, my 2nd to 4th years in high school, I had a number of girlfriends and crushes, and flings, and MUs. I think it’s normal to be involved with a lot of people when you are in HS. Everyone is excited about everyone and every relationship that comes to them. I had serious moments too so not everything was just a rush of emotions. Wow, I love highschool! My friends and I weren’t interested in boys, at all. BUT when we had that interaction with our brother school, during our senior year, some of my friends started liking boys. It was alright, we were going to graduate soon anyway and our school was just preparing us that our world is about to change.

My friends and I went to different universities and colleges and pursued different careers, but we remained close and treated ourselves as barkada. I love them to bits. I went coed and that forced me to be around boys. First day was tough because it was totally different to what I’m used to (11 years in an all girls school, hello!). I thought the guys were loud and full of themselves and PERVERTS. But interacting with them can’t be helped, then I had a change of heart; boys aren’t so bad! In fact, I found a couple of girls at my school more annoying because they were being too girly - a ton of make up, the way they speak and walk, the way they’re so picky about things, and the way they had that perfect hairdo which I was sure took hours to finish. Okay, back in my previous school, we were taught that “Simplicity is beauty” or something like that, so I’m not used to seeing over the top girly girls. Anyway, I also started liking guys, but I still was more into girls. I dated guys but it was with a girl that I really fell in love. But then my family moved to the States. It was such a tragedy to us so as a seal or sign of our love (yucks corny!) we promised that we will be each other’s last girlfriend. We won’t love another girl. Hihihi! (yuck ang corny pero parang ganyan na nga sya)…

Anyway, moving to Seattle was okay because we already have family here. My cousins are extremely nice to me which made me feel at home instantly. I started working which was alright because it kept me busy, but I had no friends which was terrible because that’s not how I lived in the Philippines. I always had a friend or my BFFs to hang out with. Friends are like family to me, so I started feeling lonely. Cousins have lives of their own and can’t hang out all the time, or when I want to. I missed having my friends around so bad that I felt depression creeping in. I focused on work and started thinking how terrible life in the US was. The only friends I had were my online blogmates. I email a lot with my barkada but that is not the same as chilling out with them and being there with them when they have get togethers. Ahuhuhu! I had a new job (my third) and I liked it very much. I had work friends.. yay. At least I get to socialize over happy hour, dinners, and office games.

And then I started school again. I was excited to meet friends, but NO.. there was none. Everyone seemed to have their own life, or work, so I never really made one. So I settled to having workfriends, and Stef. She’s a previous workmate but we still talk after she left the company.

Anyway, next thing is telling myself that I won’t meet friends if I don’t put effort into making friends. So when this guy I had been talking to on MySpace (yeah, huh), pretty clean and decent , mind you, asked that maybe we could catch a movie, I told myself “what the heck, friends do that a lot so why not? plus, he’s going to be my friend and it’ll be awesome!” I was also feeling all blue that time and thought I could need a friend.. and this was perfect timing. So I met him. He was nice which made me happy because he’s no pervert (which I was really nervous about, having known myspace as a place for pedophiles and maniacs). HAHA!!!! I’m glad he turned out the decent guy I talked to online.

So that was cool, we’re also offline friends now. I meet with him when we want to see some cool movie. Yay! I loved going to the movies. I remember in Manila, that is one of my favorite things to do with friends. Anyway, things just flowed and before I knew it, I started liking the guy and now he’s my boyfriend… ut I’m thinking of moving to NY with my friend… so I don’t know how that will work out… I guess I don’t really care because I think it’s a good thing to live your life in the present because tomorrow might not come. I’m preparing for what may happen and trying to secure a good future for me, but what today is and what I can enjoy of it, I’m not going to deprive myself of that.. no no, not anymore. I’m done being depressed and I’m happy now and I want to stay that way as long as it could last.. so yeah.. you must be crazy for reading all of this.