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I think it boils down to that. We are selfish.
I had this little talk with the lover and I asked him this random question if he thinks that we’ll still be together 5 years later. I wasn’t being totally serious with it, I was just trying to fish sweet little words from him to get giggles. Instead, it got him thinking hard and talking defensive and all that. He said “well, 5 years is a long time” blah blah blah. He’s funny sometimes. Then I suddenly realized that whoa.. he’s really being serious!! From what I can tell, he cares little of what will happen to us when he actually moves. And to be honest, I am the same in case I move. It must be because of selfish reasons, what else. I’m thinking of my own life plans, and he’s thinking of his own. Hehe!! Then I said I’ll follow him to California if he moves but he doesn’t believe I’m being serious. HAHA!! I don’t think we’re that attached yet to include each other in our more serious plans. Although it’s nice to think about. Hehe!! But yeah, I totally understand why he suddenly got confused. I wanted to tell him it’s alright but I guess it was too late. =P I did tell him though that I’m used to talking about the future because, maybe from my past relationships, it was fun and never taken seriously. I was hoping that will make him stop thinking about it. It’s my mistake for not considering he might react differently because he for sure did a 180 and made me panic a little. HAHA!! He’s so cute!

But whatever. I don’t have to be confused and dwell on things that aren’t even worth it. I know I love him today. And everyday after will be an adventure. SupahSarj!!!

I like it a lot when Jake do cute things like this. Hehe!!